No Answer.

do not call me resilient
the backbone of your little world

do not call me the one
that will suffer for your consequences
to be patient
so you can hold me accountable
for your discrepancies

do not call me the one that will absorb your pain
and give birth to something pretty
to be both mother and father

do not call me the strong one that will carry
a whole village on her tired bones
the one that will bite her tongue
while your legs are nowhere to be found

do not call me the one that will reap the benefits in the afterlife
because she suffered silently here alone int the dark

do not call me because I won’t answer

 

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Emotional Intelligence

I’m gold with a flaw or two
After speaking to my best friends after midnight (for real have those conversation late at night) I understand that awareness is cute but emotional intelligence is the key.

Checking yourself, in terms of your thoughts, reactions, moves and then correcting yourself takes a lot of self power. Self correction only happens when you are brutally honest with your own flaws. Cause flaws in my opinion are the add on but the second these flaws get toxic something has to give. If your ”flaw” is messing with your mood, mental health, your relationships or even your money you need to understand they are not flaws they are self destructive qualities.  Seriously, sometimes judging yourself from an stranger’s point of view without making any excuses is drastic but needed. So ask yourself some questions.  Are these flaws toxic? Do these flaws hurt me and others? Am I just being petty?  Would I accept these flaws in someone else?

To become better takes commitment. I am talking about the type of commitment where self love is a fact and is not based on certain conditions.

Are you ready to commit to yourself first?

It was 5:41 AM

She has lost her dreams
She not only needs to make peace with that
her heart needs to learn to live
like she did before everything changed.

She has to grieve.
She needs to feel it
Go through everything
At a point she will see herself again
and seeing him as a past
In a realistic way but still with a bit of pain

Let her go through it.
She lost a big love not a true love
a love that she trusted but scarred her so deeply
that she needs to learn to nurture herself without him.
That is the biggest sin he has ever committed… so far

Give her time to trust her instincts again
I suppose to feel whole again without him.
Otherwise she will never truly move on
Despite the fact that time is passing by
and when she does meet her true love
she won’t be open to it
When great chances beg her to accept them
She won’t even have time for an acknowledgement
She lost some of her dreams
I wouldn’t wish that heartache on anyone.

Sit with her.
Listen to her.
Let your eyes
acknowledge the pain.
Over time
your eyes
will see her living again

Even the possibility of a never ending love can break the most independent person