For the Tribe.

Communicate. We are not married so I cannot be around you and talk to you every single day. Yes, I will disappear, zone out and even put my phone on airplane mode because sometimes I need to be alone with my own baggage. But when I pick my phone back up and you tell me about your bad news… my heart will not only ache for you but I will drop my baggage and find a good connection where I am not projecting my mindset on to you. I will focus on you, listen to how you are feeling and ask the questions that you need a friend to ask you. I will then offer you the advice that may help you even when I sound like the biggest hyprocrite on earth. I’ll ask God to listen your prayers and I pray that you will find solace in Him too. When you let me know about your good news my heart will grow so big that my own rib cage will have a hard time containing it. I will be your biggest hype man and pray that your blessings will keep on coming for forever and ever.

I have a responsibility to my tribe. This is my commitment.

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Time is not always on your side.

There is a lot of guilt that we all carry in our day to day lives. We want to be there for our loved ones, work on ourselves and contribute to the world. Sometimes something has to suffer, you have your priorities. I think we should focus on the quality of time that we are spending and giving, not on the quantity. When you are with your parents is your mind fully present or are you thinking of your other responsibilities? Do you make them smile, do you have deep conversation, do you give your undivided attention and support? There will always be a sense of guilt when we cannot give more time to a loved one, a cause or anything that is close to us. I believe that guilt is there because the love is there. Don’t be too hard on yourself. Reflect, evaluate, communicate and move on.

 

Keep trying.
Peace. 

It was 5:41 AM

She has lost her dreams
She not only needs to make peace with that
her heart needs to learn to live
like she did before everything changed.

She has to grieve.
She needs to feel it
Go through everything
At a point she will see herself again
and seeing him as a past
In a realistic way but still with a bit of pain

Let her go through it.
She lost a big love not a true love
a love that she trusted but scarred her so deeply
that she needs to learn to nurture herself without him.
That is the biggest sin he has ever committed… so far

Give her time to trust her instincts again
I suppose to feel whole again without him.
Otherwise she will never truly move on
Despite the fact that time is passing by
and when she does meet her true love
she won’t be open to it
When great chances beg her to accept them
She won’t even have time for an acknowledgement
She lost some of her dreams
I wouldn’t wish that heartache on anyone.

Sit with her.
Listen to her.
Let your eyes
acknowledge the pain.
Over time
your eyes
will see her living again

Even the possibility of a never ending love can break the most independent person

 

Yes I want a hug

I long for a hug covered in sweet warmth and understanding
to take away my blue anxiety and make it green again
make my blue anxiety, a place of growth, green hope

hold me close and stop time for me
right now everything is going so fast
my tongue wants to say the deep thoughts to strangers
they who do not have care for me but have wide grins
so stop me and stop time from pushing me

a hug and someone that makes my back a bit softer
less scarred from the things they throw at me
someone that does not know the entire horror story
but feels the atmosphere of my being