your love almost made me drown
drowned out my ability to hear my own voice
the voice of self respect, my mama’s voice

I will always remember myself squeezing your big thumb
my hands begging you to stay forever
but my voice telling you farewell my temporary love

small pieces of my heart returned back to its sender
and I was left with a throat filled with gaping wounds

when new lovers try and share their blessings with me
I am still unable to swallow
too scared that when they move on
my body will be left in chaos again



It was 5:41 AM

She has lost her dreams
She not only needs to make peace with that
her heart needs to learn to live
like she did before everything changed.

She has to grieve.
She needs to feel it
Go through everything
At a point she will see herself again
and seeing him as a past
In a realistic way but still with a bit of pain

Let her go through it.
She lost a big love not a true love
a love that she trusted but scarred her so deeply
that she needs to learn to nurture herself without him.
That is the biggest sin he has ever committed… so far

Give her time to trust her instincts again
I suppose to feel whole again without him.
Otherwise she will never truly move on
Despite the fact that time is passing by
and when she does meet her true love
she won’t be open to it
When great chances beg her to accept them
She won’t even have time for an acknowledgement
She lost some of her dreams
I wouldn’t wish that heartache on anyone.

Sit with her.
Listen to her.
Let your eyes
acknowledge the pain.
Over time
your eyes
will see her living again

Even the possibility of a never ending love can break the most independent person