you were opening yourself up to love
by breaking your own back.
by drowning yourself in apologies
that it would make you more desirable.
You were actually attending your own burial.
Now you are living six feet under and they are walking all over you.
Stop. Go back to living in the sun.
Let a true lover celebrate you with full force.
Accept the love, the trust, the commitment.
Never stay lingering around an individual
that is not grateful for your presence.
Let a true lover celebrate you.
Let a true lover come to you with commitment.
With intention. With action.
Your Mama did not risk her body and soul
for you to accept the bare minimum.
You are meant for thick love.
Let thick love in.
do not let the thoughts
ruin your way of living here
go ahead and disrespect your doubts
fulfil the promises you made to yourself
by whispering to me
whilst my eyes were betraying my heart
you tried to own me from within
slowly your voice filled up my hours
this home became your house
I needed my soul back
so I put a world in between us
as you poured yourself into your words
I would sit there and let my heart overrule your thoughts
now you are living
without a witness
without my presence
Home isn’t always
your happy place
Home is the space
where you show up
deal with yourself
even when you don’t want to
If you believe in something and the other makes it their mission to turn you into a non believer… Please turn your face away from them and let the things that move your soul shine on you will full force. Don’t you ever disrespect your essence, your heart, your magic just to appease the other.
”Almost a decade later and I am still working
to find the balance that only works for me, myself and I first.”