there is a war going on in my mouth
after years of biting my tongue I bit it off
my mouth is full of my own blood
my tongue is bleeding and I keep swallowing
swallowing their demands and my lost voice
there is a war going on in my mouth
outside they only see my thick lips
in the shape of a closed smile
They told you that the ones
who smile with their mouths closed
have something to hide right?
Look at your life and think about if you are truly taking care of your own heart, thoughts, needs and wants. Do you have a hard time catching your own breathe because you are running towards or away from something? Stop, put all the temporary stuff, the demands from other individuals and their threats of disappointment in the air and let the wind blow it all away. Keep yourself and breathe. Find that time, that space, that place where you are giving love to yourself without thinking of anything else in that moment but just me, myself and I. Yes, you have to hustle in this world hustle but be careful that this world is not taking too much away from you and not giving enough back.
Self love does not come
with a list of demands or deal breakers,
it is about feeding your soul with love
without caring about their big eyes
put all the temporary stuff
the demands from the outsiders
their threat of disappointment in the air
let the wind blow it all away
Keep yourself and breathe.
I’m gold with a flaw or two
After speaking to my best friends after midnight (for real have those conversation late at night) I understand that awareness is cute but emotional intelligence is the key.
Checking yourself, in terms of your thoughts, reactions, moves and then correcting yourself takes a lot of self power. Self correction only happens when you are brutally honest with your own flaws. Cause flaws in my opinion are the add on but the second these flaws get toxic something has to give. If your ”flaw” is messing with your mood, mental health, your relationships or even your money you need to understand they are not flaws they are self destructive qualities. Seriously, sometimes judging yourself from an stranger’s point of view without making any excuses is drastic but needed. So ask yourself some questions. Are these flaws toxic? Do these flaws hurt me and others? Am I just being petty? Would I accept these flaws in someone else?
To become better takes commitment. I am talking about the type of commitment where self love is a fact and is not based on certain conditions.
Are you ready to commit to yourself first?
There is a war going on in my mouth
no matter where my head takes me
you are here when I get back
Communicate. We are not married so I cannot be around you and talk to you every single day. Yes, I will disappear, zone out and even put my phone on airplane mode because sometimes I need to be alone with my own baggage. But when I pick my phone back up and you tell me about your bad news… my heart will not only ache for you but I will drop my baggage and find a good connection where I am not projecting my mindset on to you. I will focus on you, listen to how you are feeling and ask the questions that you need a friend to ask you. I will then offer you the advice that may help you even when I sound like the biggest hyprocrite on earth. I’ll ask God to listen your prayers and I pray that you will find solace in Him too. When you let me know about your good news my heart will grow so big that my own rib cage will have a hard time containing it. I will be your biggest hype man and pray that your blessings will keep on coming for forever and ever.
I have a responsibility to my tribe. This is my commitment.