That self love stuff

a lover that will  greet your past with respect
that will hold your present by the hand
that will dance with you into your  future

may you find that love with a lover
or maybe just maybe find it with your faith
may your faith blow new life into you
may you see yourself
finally love yourself
the way your Mama loves you

 

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My Mama’s Mama

Macooyo

lets talk while we cover our fingertips in henna
let’s talk and get some understanding

you lost a lot, you have been through a lot and still you pray
and still you bow your head in submission
let faith give you the strength to keep on moving
now you pray from your chair still, for salvation, health, protection
you pray for me, you pray for us, you pray for the souls that have left us
you pray for this entire temporary world, each word overflowing with sincerity

you are one of the reasons why I found my way back to God
you are my sabr in a world that is so temporary
you are my reminder that faith will keep the heart alive
so lets talk, make some memories and let the henna work its magic

 

I am not your witness

by whispering to me
whilst my eyes were betraying my heart
you tried to own me from within
slowly your voice filled up my hours
this home became your house

I needed my soul back
so I put a world in between us
as you poured yourself into your words
I would sit there and let my heart overrule your thoughts

now you are living
without a witness
without my presence

May you breathe easier

When it comes to life whatever the situation we are dealing with in our heads or out there in the world, at the end of a long day I want to breathe a little easier. For me to be able to breathe and actually feel my entire body means I am aware and I am accepting myself. Call it reflection, meditation, prayer I want to be able to breathe always a little bit  easier. When stress comes back for a commitment and takes away my ability to breathe it changes everything. It’s not even about that I want to be free of anything that gives me stress because to be free of that means I want to be free of my life and my life is blessed.  It’s about learning to commit to myself before believing whatever outside is telling me to believe about myself. Call it happiness. Call It peace. But if I can breathe easier no matter what the day has brought me, I am living. So I hope you are breathing a little easier  as well.

This is my commitment.

I had to learn that my first commitment had to be to Allah. By committing to Him I was committing to myself at the same time. The commitment taught me to see this world through my heart and not my eyes. He is the one I cling onto when I find myself lost in temporary moments. By committing to Allah I found grace during my times of tribulations and became grateful for the blessings as well. By committing to Allah my chest became bigger and my breathing got easier. Because to commit to a soul first means to live with the constant fear of them leaving you through choice or through death and that will consume your way of living. To be attached that deeply that vigorously to a temporary being will exhaust your own soul.  I want to live and to live means I have to commit to Allah first.

my first commitment is to Allah and that is an act of self love in itself