I did not find a forever home in my past
the trauma however sometimes comes back
for an acknowledgement, eye contact
but I refuse to sit with it, to make small talk
I am done writing about it,
giving it my undivided attention, to bathe in it
sometimes I look at the moment
when I coughed up small parts of my soul and I think to myself
even in that moment I did not give up because of Allah
perhaps we are in a constant state of bliss or denial..
or the magnitude of the sadness and pain in this world are too great to fit our bodies
Dry your eyes baby girl
do not let your energy
leave your body through tears
that you cry for them
you will cry of pure relieve
all the struggle will leave your body
you will not look back
you will move forward
by leaning on time
I am slowly learning to love myself
one day I will welcome myself back
no more will I rely on the love of others
listening to yourself and not them
She has lost her dreams
She not only needs to make peace with that
her heart needs to learn to live
like she did before everything changed.
She has to grieve.
She needs to feel it
Go through everything
At a point she will see herself again
and seeing him as a past
In a realistic way but still with a bit of pain
Let her go through it.
She lost a big love not a true love
a love that she trusted but scarred her so deeply
that she needs to learn to nurture herself without him.
That is the biggest sin he has ever committed… so far
Give her time to trust her instincts again
I suppose to feel whole again without him.
Otherwise she will never truly move on
Despite the fact that time is passing by
and when she does meet her true love
she won’t be open to it
When great chances beg her to accept them
She won’t even have time for an acknowledgement
She lost some of her dreams
I wouldn’t wish that heartache on anyone.
Sit with her.
Listen to her.
Let your eyes
acknowledge the pain.
will see her living again
Even the possibility of a never ending love can break the most independent person