She needed a moment. A time out. A peace out. She needed to get herself out of her thoughts and get herself back with… So she excited the four walls, walked up a hill and looked around. All around her were trees that helped her breathe and then she remembered to look up. You see… for a long time she had forgotten how the sky was her escape, her home away from home. She had been looking down for a while and trying to close her eyes during prayer, during meditation but her focus had been off. Shaky at best. So she found a perfect spot under an old tree and laid on the grass. According to yoga, she’s doing the corps pose, but if you ask her she is getting back to basics, being with the ground. Her body slowly changed its breathing and her eyes, it was like the first time a baby seeing Mama. She couldn’t stop smiling and was just focused on her home in the sky. Her mind was at ease, cool and calm. She, for a moment was untouchable.
We all have those days
when we want to forget about their eyes
and that voice comes out of you
the one that is done silencing herself
and just needs to be who she is within her own home
I long for a hug covered in sweet warmth and understanding
to take away my blue anxiety and make it green again
make my blue anxiety, a place of growth, green hope
hold me close and stop time for me
right now everything is going so fast
my tongue wants to say the deep thoughts to strangers
they who do not have care for me but have wide grins
so stop me and stop time from pushing me
a hug and someone that makes my back a bit softer
less scarred from the things they throw at me
someone that does not know the entire horror story
but feels the atmosphere of my being
an embrace from the back
a kiss on my crown
taking my arm when I try to run
You show that you are home
This bed is more important to me than a lover
This bed soaks up my tears
Keeps me warm from the cold
The home of my darkness and deep dimensions
This bed hears my prayers that I whisper silently at night.
Knows the story behind the words that I write.
This is the bed where I lay my head to rest
This bed is my one and only witness to my real life.